ooooooooooooooooooooohhhhhhhhh boy
every time i’m like life sure can’t feel shittier than this, the world is like “hold my beer” and shits in my face
these people.. these disgusting people who don’t have the decency to treat others like humans.
these entitled pieces of shit who revel when they manage to hurt another human
i’m glad im surrounded by people who reassure me of my worth. i’m glad i know i don’t deserve this. i know i have the right to demand the respect i deserve. i do not have to bend over and crawl in front of these people. i don’t have to accept this treatment with a smile. i am allowed to take up space, make noise, be “annoying” if that’s what it takes.
these are people coming to ME demanding ME to bend to their will, and i wont fucking do it, no matter how much they try to shame me, insult me, belittle me, tell me to kill myself, make fun of me, and do it all over and over and over again
i am allowed to react to it. i am allowed to talk about it.
mostly i don’t want to, because what a waste of time! i know it is a waste of time.
but if you get thrown rocks at, after a while it kinda starts getting on your nerves. and at some point, at a weak moment, or when it’s just Too Much, you react.
“ignore it” say the people who have never been bullied
“ignore it” say the people who are themselves, not ignoring what annoys them (me talking about it)
like how about you ignore *me*, jackass???
anyway taking a walk with topias in the blizzard calmed me down
tho my ed is like wehhhh i want icecream to eat and throw up repeatedly until i feel better or pass out
but i was able to Not Do That so at least i can be happy about something today
anyway people suck.
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