I had my bloodworks done recently and turns out my anemia has gotten way worse. Ferritin at 10 and hemoglobin and 95 is pretty bad! The mystery of “why am I so fucking tired alllll the time” has been solved! Not much of a mystery, ngl.
With the results, I have had to go back to very strict gluten-free diet (I should’ve been on it all along!!!) and it honestly hasn’t been as bad as I thought. Or any of the other times I’ve tried to strictly do gluten-free diet. Maybe the fact that every day I’m feeling much better than before, cause my body is starting to heal from me treating it like crap?
Who knows! Anyway, while I miss plenty of foods (bread… donuts.. all pastries.. the gluten free versions just suck!), it’s been.. like. Fine.
I’ve been allowing myself to buy some stupid stuff just so I eat something, like. Slices of cheese and ham and I just slap em together and eat them like that. That’s so stupid. It’s really good.
Struggle: Good days are more frequent but every time there’s a bad day after a good day, I just get so fucking depressed and feel dejected, disappointed and in despair. Many D words. The only D word I would like to have in my brain is dick, but instead it’s all those other stupid words. Get out! Shoo! I wanna think about dicks!
Oh well.
がんばります!!! 
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